A Cup From My Babies — Getting Lost In Life And Finding Your Way Back

My kids gave me that cup on mothers day.
I miss my babies today.

I struggle to be a mom without her babies.
They and I did not get justice from the court yet. But we will.
This cup; it reminds me of my children’s faith in my ability to stand trials of life and keep fighting no matter how many times I lose.

I take this cup out on days I need to remind myself of the same.
Faith and Hope need to stem from love. Deep-rooted, close to as unconditional as it can, wonderful, and painful love.

My primary care doctor, who has known me for 11 years, reminds me that there is still plenty of fight left in me when I see him.
Don’t give a negative connotation to the words fight. It’s as simple as getting up in the morning when you are exhausted emotionally and physically.

We all have fights left in us.
I understand more than anyone the desire to give up.
But you can’t, we can’t.

Yesterday, as I was typing a message to a friend, I realized that I had built walls after walls around my heart in a short few weeks. I did not see that coming.

None of us know the complete story of anyone. So when I am writing about things, I always keep that in mind.
Then why write as I do?
I hope it helps someone somewhere, as reading the stories of others helps me. I admire their courage and strength to be vulnerable openly.
And I am grateful for their stories.

Now back to what I was writing.
It came as a shock to me that I have closed off my heart and let life’s downs take something significant to me. My ability to love.
When you know better, do better.
So, here I am. Openly saying it.
I took this cup out today to remind myself what’s important in life.

Life knocks you down from time to time.
How will we know the value of light if we never know what darkness is?
As you go through life, collect the little things, memories, and mementos that one day you can look at to remind yourself what’s important to you.
So that you can find your way back when you get lost.

Luv
Sajatha Jaffer

Writer, artist, poet, humanist, trying to be a better person today than I was yesterday while sharing extraordinarily ordinary things of life. Boldly!

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Sajatha Jaffer

Sajatha Jaffer

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Writer, artist, poet, humanist, trying to be a better person today than I was yesterday while sharing extraordinarily ordinary things of life. Boldly!